Our weekend was L-A-Z-Y, simply put. But in a nice sorta way. Friday night we went to the gym after work. We did a good upper body workout and I even got 15 minutes in on the bike. After working out we grabbed dinner and headed home. When we got home I vaccuumed the house and watched a little TV.
Saturday I was awakened by the onset of those lovely cramps. (So there's your answer about this month's TTC, it didn't happen.) Anyway I took some ibuprofren and went back to bed. I didn't sleep well though and finally got up and moved to the couch. I spent most of Saturday in that same spot alternating ends though. :D
Yesterday I woke up and the ball of my left foot was quite sore. I didn't remember doing anything to it and wasn't sure what happened. I got up and made sausage gravy and biscuits for breakfast. YUMMY! After scanning the paper and took a shower and we headed to the gym, despite my sore foot. I realized real quick that I was limited with my sore foot. I did most of lower, but did skip the hip sled. I did 15 walking lunges before giving in to some pain. Finally I did about 20 minutes on the bike while Eric finished up his workout. I realize now that I did too much. Eric massaged it several times throughout the day, but it was still hurting. We spent the rest of the day being lazy. I did make a chicken & rice casserole for my lunch this week, but that was about it. Oh and Eric made us french fries and tator tots for dinner last night.
This morning we got up at 5 am and headed to the gym. I knew before we got there that my foot was worse, but I wanted to suck it up and keep up with my workout. I decided 15 minutes in that I could do no more than 20 minutes and even that was pushing it. I was nearly in tears and that 20 minutes couldn't come fast enough. When I got to work this morning I called a podiatrist, but unfortunately they can't get me in until next Monday. I don't know what I'm going to do in the meantime. I guess stay off of it as much as possible. This sucks!
Monday, January 30, 2006
Thursday, January 26, 2006
School
It just occurred to me this week that I have completely let you in the dark about my returning to school. OK, so the plan was to go back to school for radiology. At first I was thinking full blown radiologist, but after some research decided rad. tech. was better. I had tried e-mailing 2 advisors and didn't get a respone, so I decided to just go ahead and pay my $30 app fee and apply to school. Plus it was getting close to Jan and I wanted to start this Spring. About a week later I finally got an e-mail back and set up an appointment to meet with an advisor. In a nutshell their website is S-T-U-P-I-D and they do not offer a degree in rad. tech. Apparently a lot of people think they do. My response, "Well, I work for a department on campus and this would stike me as something that needs to be fixed." Apparently they like the confusion, b/c its still misleading. One option I did have was to be a med tech, but my MIL inlaw did that for several years and after talking to her I realized that was not what I wanted to do either. So I basically wasted $30 b/c people like to mislead you on their website and/or not meet with you until AFTER you have applied and wasted your money.
So now where am I?
Well, I love being outside. I love doing all things outside. A few years ago I even thought about opening my own landscaping business. I've even thought about opening a greenhouse. So I've decided to join this Master*Garden program. It is going to allow me to increase my knowledge in several different horitculture areas. I would attend a series of classes weekly last 3-4 hours. After completing those classes and getting a 70% I would become an intern. While an intern I would be doing some voluneer work. Eventually I would become certified and would be able to educate others in the program. The bad thing is the guy I've been in contact with (or not) doesn't respond to e-mails very well. I finally got a short reply after 3 weeks telling me he'd send me information and that he'd add my name on the waiting list. I have no idea when this will start, where I'm at on the waiting list, anything. It's really frustrating. Eric asked me if it was worth it and to me it is.
Another idea if I don't get in this spring would be to talk to a greenhouse near our house. I could see if they would be willing to hire me for a couple days a week. If all else fails I could ask them if I could volunteer (although I'd like to get a little $$) so I can start gaining some knowledge.
So that's about all I know right now. I'm just hanging out on the waiting list for the time being...
So now where am I?
Well, I love being outside. I love doing all things outside. A few years ago I even thought about opening my own landscaping business. I've even thought about opening a greenhouse. So I've decided to join this Master*Garden program. It is going to allow me to increase my knowledge in several different horitculture areas. I would attend a series of classes weekly last 3-4 hours. After completing those classes and getting a 70% I would become an intern. While an intern I would be doing some voluneer work. Eventually I would become certified and would be able to educate others in the program. The bad thing is the guy I've been in contact with (or not) doesn't respond to e-mails very well. I finally got a short reply after 3 weeks telling me he'd send me information and that he'd add my name on the waiting list. I have no idea when this will start, where I'm at on the waiting list, anything. It's really frustrating. Eric asked me if it was worth it and to me it is.
Another idea if I don't get in this spring would be to talk to a greenhouse near our house. I could see if they would be willing to hire me for a couple days a week. If all else fails I could ask them if I could volunteer (although I'd like to get a little $$) so I can start gaining some knowledge.
So that's about all I know right now. I'm just hanging out on the waiting list for the time being...
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Therapy...
First thing I did Monday when I went in for my therapy appointment was schedule my next appointment for 1 month out. Big Mistake!
We had a really good conversation at first just catching up on things like Ashlee, Christmas on my mom's side, GWO. Then we got to talking about Eric & I and I asked her about marriage counseling. We have a few issues, but nothing to get divorced over. After we got into that deep she determined the source of a lot of problems. She said that I am suffering from post traumatic anxiety of Matt's death now. I've been having dreams, snapshots, flashbacks, whatever and they give me a horrible feeling that something bad is going to happen. I even get anxious riding in a car for long distances. (Longer than just to work or around town). It's horrible and its making me crazy. I've realized I'm quite numb to my feelings about anything these days and realizing that makes me even worse off. She told me to talk to Eric about it and I did. I feel a little better, but I just can't get over this hump. I know it's going to take a while, too. I'm also going to buy a photo album or scrapbook and go through all the stuff I have of Matt and put that together. She suggested I do it with Eric and talk about it while I'm doing it.
I told her about the DVD I'm making for the family of video of Matt & a picture slideshow and how I spent 5 hours scanning all the pictures and she thinks that may have been what triggered all this. (I just scanned them a few weeks ago) So I went on to talk about the movie editing and stuff and she was glad that we had given it to Danialle to finish. (BIG Thanks D!)
We concluded that this was also affecting my sleep, too. My mind races and I worry about everything when I'm finally able to have some quiet time each day and it causes me to have trouble going to sleep and staying asleep b/c every time I wake up I'm back to racing.
She thinks that for the last 6 months I've been occupied with my family and how they are handling Matt's death and haven't actually grieved myself even though I thought I had. I realize now that she is right. Now that everyone else is doing better it's like my body can let down this guard and allow me to finally grieve.
Some things to work on per my therapist include going through my "Matt stuff" and getting it ready for a scrapbook or album. Actually going to the gym like we'd planned instead of just planning it. I've been M, T, W already this week! I'm actually even getting up at 5 am and going to do cardio every morning. Then 2 evenings during the week and 1 day on the weekend we are doing weights.
So I got to call the office back and reschedule my 4 week appointment to NEXT WEEK. If I'm not any better I have to see Dr. Banana again (I saw him a few years ago) and possibly get back on some type of med. Even if it's just something to help me sleep at night. I don't want to go back on the meds, so I'm really trying really hard not to. I realize that it will be just one week since all this realization, so hopefully I'm heading uphill now.
I know I'm not to the point I was at a few years ago, but I know that I'm not doing great either.
We had a really good conversation at first just catching up on things like Ashlee, Christmas on my mom's side, GWO. Then we got to talking about Eric & I and I asked her about marriage counseling. We have a few issues, but nothing to get divorced over. After we got into that deep she determined the source of a lot of problems. She said that I am suffering from post traumatic anxiety of Matt's death now. I've been having dreams, snapshots, flashbacks, whatever and they give me a horrible feeling that something bad is going to happen. I even get anxious riding in a car for long distances. (Longer than just to work or around town). It's horrible and its making me crazy. I've realized I'm quite numb to my feelings about anything these days and realizing that makes me even worse off. She told me to talk to Eric about it and I did. I feel a little better, but I just can't get over this hump. I know it's going to take a while, too. I'm also going to buy a photo album or scrapbook and go through all the stuff I have of Matt and put that together. She suggested I do it with Eric and talk about it while I'm doing it.
I told her about the DVD I'm making for the family of video of Matt & a picture slideshow and how I spent 5 hours scanning all the pictures and she thinks that may have been what triggered all this. (I just scanned them a few weeks ago) So I went on to talk about the movie editing and stuff and she was glad that we had given it to Danialle to finish. (BIG Thanks D!)
We concluded that this was also affecting my sleep, too. My mind races and I worry about everything when I'm finally able to have some quiet time each day and it causes me to have trouble going to sleep and staying asleep b/c every time I wake up I'm back to racing.
She thinks that for the last 6 months I've been occupied with my family and how they are handling Matt's death and haven't actually grieved myself even though I thought I had. I realize now that she is right. Now that everyone else is doing better it's like my body can let down this guard and allow me to finally grieve.
Some things to work on per my therapist include going through my "Matt stuff" and getting it ready for a scrapbook or album. Actually going to the gym like we'd planned instead of just planning it. I've been M, T, W already this week! I'm actually even getting up at 5 am and going to do cardio every morning. Then 2 evenings during the week and 1 day on the weekend we are doing weights.
So I got to call the office back and reschedule my 4 week appointment to NEXT WEEK. If I'm not any better I have to see Dr. Banana again (I saw him a few years ago) and possibly get back on some type of med. Even if it's just something to help me sleep at night. I don't want to go back on the meds, so I'm really trying really hard not to. I realize that it will be just one week since all this realization, so hopefully I'm heading uphill now.
I know I'm not to the point I was at a few years ago, but I know that I'm not doing great either.
Monday, January 23, 2006
Trivia Tips about Erica
I got this from Jemmers
Ten Top Trivia Tips about Erica!
- Medieval knights put the skin of Erica on their sword handles to improve the grip.
- Erica can live for up to a week without a head.
- Over 46,000 pieces of Erica float on every square mile of ocean.
- Research indicates that Erica will be attracted to people who have recently eaten bananas.
- When provoked, Erica will swivel the tip of her abdomen and shoot a jet of boiling chemicals at her attacker!
- Birds do not sleep in Erica, though they may rest in her from time to time!
- Erica is the sacred animal of Thailand.
- Grapes explode if you put them inside Erica!
- India tested its first nuclear Erica in 1974.
- The pigment Indian Yellow was manufactured from the urine of cows fed only on Erica.
Weekend - Christmas 05-06
Friday I decided to stay home from work. My gramps was getting surgery in the afternoon and Eric had a meeting all day long, so I took the opportunity to stay home. I tried sleeping in, but the doggies had other ideas, so I spent the morning on the couch. Around 11 am, I decided to work on a few items on my "To Do" list I've been wanting to get done. I got a load of laundry done and then tackled the refrigetator. It needed cleaning, so I spent a few hours taking out shelves and cleaning them, plus throwing out some stuff. The only thing I didn't get done was the shelves on the door, but that's my goal for next weekend. Anyway during the afternoon I took a short nap and watched a few shows then got ready.
When Eric got home he did a few things then we headed to a local mexican restaurant and met up with some family members for some eatin'. Unfortunately several people didn't show up, mostly b/c of my gramps surgery. That was ok though we still had a good time. We invited everyone over to our house after dinner and the cousins from Chicago got in about the time we got back to our house. We did have a little interesting thing happen... The 3 guy cousins went to the LQ to get a few things and some mixers and ended up getting pulled over "because they looked to young to be in the LQ". Thankfully the one cousin driving only got off with a ticket that we are pretty sure he can get out of. The older relatives left and the 8 of us younger group hung out and chatted til about midnight.
Saturday morning we got up and got ready, then headed to C'ville for Christmas. Yes we have Christmas in January. I think everyone was there at one time or another and we had a blast opening presents, eating from the billions of options my grams had available and just enjoying each other's company. You can see pictures here.
Sunday we had a pretty lazy day. When I got up (I slept in a bit), we went out for breakfast and wandered around Target. After that we headed home and I didn't do too much of anything that couldn't be done from the comfort of the couch. We watched a movie last night and I went to bed around 9:30.
At least is wasn't a stressful weekend.
When Eric got home he did a few things then we headed to a local mexican restaurant and met up with some family members for some eatin'. Unfortunately several people didn't show up, mostly b/c of my gramps surgery. That was ok though we still had a good time. We invited everyone over to our house after dinner and the cousins from Chicago got in about the time we got back to our house. We did have a little interesting thing happen... The 3 guy cousins went to the LQ to get a few things and some mixers and ended up getting pulled over "because they looked to young to be in the LQ". Thankfully the one cousin driving only got off with a ticket that we are pretty sure he can get out of. The older relatives left and the 8 of us younger group hung out and chatted til about midnight.
Saturday morning we got up and got ready, then headed to C'ville for Christmas. Yes we have Christmas in January. I think everyone was there at one time or another and we had a blast opening presents, eating from the billions of options my grams had available and just enjoying each other's company. You can see pictures here.
Sunday we had a pretty lazy day. When I got up (I slept in a bit), we went out for breakfast and wandered around Target. After that we headed home and I didn't do too much of anything that couldn't be done from the comfort of the couch. We watched a movie last night and I went to bed around 9:30.
At least is wasn't a stressful weekend.
Friday, January 20, 2006
Gramps & Stones
I found out that my gramps is going in for surgery this afternoon to remove a kidney stone. Apparently he woke up yesterday morning at 3 am and told my grams he was hurting and needed to go to the hospital. My gramps is not a complainer so grams knew he was serious. This totally sucks b/c this weekend is when our family is having our christmas. The good news is that they told them is was out patient surgery so apparently if he does well in recovery and soon after he may get to go home tonight or early tomorrow. I sure hope he is there to share christmas with us. It just won't be the same without him. I love my gramps!
Thursday, January 19, 2006
Happy Birthday Dad!
50 Years ago today my dad entered the world! And what a wonderful man he is today. I'm so lucky to have him as a dad!
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
I'm back
I've not been off to a good start for 2006. I had a breakdown on Jan 2 and I even scared myself. Starting on the 3rd all hell broke loose with my sister who had been staying with us. To make a long story short and not give many details here as I think it's inappropriate, we are talking a bit, but she basically hates my husband. Of course she won't talk to him about it either and yes he is willing. That made for a really rough week. On the 7th I attended my cousin's baby shower and had a lot of fun. I was really tense about going, but it turned out to be fun.
Last week I was crazy busy at work. It was a nightmare. I don't know why all these kids wait until the last possible minute to register for classes and then make me feel like it's my fault. I have a backbone though and they don't get very far with it.
Friday I headed to OH for a Girls' Weekend. It turned out that my friend Jennifer's daughter was still in the hospital recovering from her surgery, pneumonia, and bacterial infection so we spent the weekend hanging out at the hospital. It was still fun though. We played with Grace constantly and got some intense girl time in with only a few minor interruptions from the nurses. (Including one "murse" who we believe was a man even though s/he looked completely like a woman...Scarey...) Despite being at the hospital we did "escape" a few times and still had a great time and I know Jennifer (& Grace) both enjoyed the company.
Jennifer's husband let us steal her away for 2 nights. On Friday night Danialle's plane kept getting delayed and we ended up picking her up at 1 am Saturday morning. It made for a short night's sleep. Saturday night we hit up Olive*Garden for a 4 course meal. YUMMY!
Monday I got up early and hit the road home. Danialle made a quick visit to the hospital before departing for the airport herself.
When I got home I showered and did some laundry. I was too exhausted to cook dinner and Eric made arrangements to eat out so we had dinner and I got a very nice massage (among other things) before falling asleep shortly after 8 pm.
Today I've been cleaning up the tornado that hit my desk while I was out Friday. I swear these people are incompetent. Ugh! I think I'm caught up now. I'm sure I'll have to put out some forest fires this afternoon, but I guess its ok.
This week is going to be mad crazy. Tonight we are going to a closing party for one of Eric's accounts. Wednesday we actually get to spend the evening at home. I hope we just get a movie and eat something easy. Thursday we are heading to C'ville for my dad's birthday. Friday we have dinner out with the crazy side of my family (hee hee). Saturday is Christmas with the aforementioned family. Sunday I think I'll spend the day in bed and recooperate. Although we have a busy week it should be a lot of fun.
Hopefully I'm back to regular posting. I did put up some pics in the Flickr album of my cousin's baby shower. I hope to put up some pics of the little Grace munchkin (from this weekend) this week sometime. I have a billion other things going on, so forgive me if I don't get to it til this weekend. :D
Missed you all & I have been trying to keep up with your blogs.
Last week I was crazy busy at work. It was a nightmare. I don't know why all these kids wait until the last possible minute to register for classes and then make me feel like it's my fault. I have a backbone though and they don't get very far with it.
Friday I headed to OH for a Girls' Weekend. It turned out that my friend Jennifer's daughter was still in the hospital recovering from her surgery, pneumonia, and bacterial infection so we spent the weekend hanging out at the hospital. It was still fun though. We played with Grace constantly and got some intense girl time in with only a few minor interruptions from the nurses. (Including one "murse" who we believe was a man even though s/he looked completely like a woman...Scarey...) Despite being at the hospital we did "escape" a few times and still had a great time and I know Jennifer (& Grace) both enjoyed the company.
Jennifer's husband let us steal her away for 2 nights. On Friday night Danialle's plane kept getting delayed and we ended up picking her up at 1 am Saturday morning. It made for a short night's sleep. Saturday night we hit up Olive*Garden for a 4 course meal. YUMMY!
Monday I got up early and hit the road home. Danialle made a quick visit to the hospital before departing for the airport herself.
When I got home I showered and did some laundry. I was too exhausted to cook dinner and Eric made arrangements to eat out so we had dinner and I got a very nice massage (among other things) before falling asleep shortly after 8 pm.
Today I've been cleaning up the tornado that hit my desk while I was out Friday. I swear these people are incompetent. Ugh! I think I'm caught up now. I'm sure I'll have to put out some forest fires this afternoon, but I guess its ok.
This week is going to be mad crazy. Tonight we are going to a closing party for one of Eric's accounts. Wednesday we actually get to spend the evening at home. I hope we just get a movie and eat something easy. Thursday we are heading to C'ville for my dad's birthday. Friday we have dinner out with the crazy side of my family (hee hee). Saturday is Christmas with the aforementioned family. Sunday I think I'll spend the day in bed and recooperate. Although we have a busy week it should be a lot of fun.
Hopefully I'm back to regular posting. I did put up some pics in the Flickr album of my cousin's baby shower. I hope to put up some pics of the little Grace munchkin (from this weekend) this week sometime. I have a billion other things going on, so forgive me if I don't get to it til this weekend. :D
Missed you all & I have been trying to keep up with your blogs.
Friday, January 06, 2006
MIA
I might as well be. Sorry no updates. I'm really busy at work and a LOT has been going on with my family that I can't talk about here. Will try to update soon. Please keep me in your thoughts b/c I am so close to a breakdown...
Sunday, January 01, 2006
New Year's Resolutions/Goals
Today starts a new year and hopefully a much better year than 2005. So as always I have come up with some new year's resolutions...
Health
1. Cook healthy dinners at home - 4 to 5 times weekly
2. Cook 1 new meal weekly
3. Reduce red meat to once/week, increase fish
4. Re-Initiate Diet Blog - At least weekly updates
5. 30 Minutes of Exercise 5 to 6 times weekly
6. Join 1 Class at the Gym
7. Allow 1 Lunch (Thurs) and 1 Dinner out during week, 1 Meal out on weekend
8. Make meal plans on Sunday and stick to it
9. Doing all this should put me at my ideal weight (approx 12-15 pounds lighter)
10. Stick to it for 1 whole year - This will be a struggle, but totally feasible
Finances
1. Reduce Debt by ALOT! I have an amount set, but don't think its appropriate to list it here.
2. Save $3,000 for IUI/Injectible Cycle ($250/month)
Intellectual Development
1. Read 10 books
2. Take some fun classes around town (crafty or gardening)
3. Learn how to knit
Spirtuality
1. Yoga or Pilates or TaeBo (twice weekly) - This might be joining the Piyo class at gym
Personal Development
1. Remember cards for birthdays, holidays, anniversaries, etc. (This was a goal for 2005 - I was good except for the "minor" holiday cards, ie Easter)
2. Increase positive well being
3. Update scrapbooks and keep them updated in timely manner
June 30 - Evaluate Goals & Progress
Most of my goals are more towards my health, yes, but it's very important. I think when I get my total body in check most of the other things will just come and I can feel better about myself all around.
Health
1. Cook healthy dinners at home - 4 to 5 times weekly
2. Cook 1 new meal weekly
3. Reduce red meat to once/week, increase fish
4. Re-Initiate Diet Blog - At least weekly updates
5. 30 Minutes of Exercise 5 to 6 times weekly
6. Join 1 Class at the Gym
7. Allow 1 Lunch (Thurs) and 1 Dinner out during week, 1 Meal out on weekend
8. Make meal plans on Sunday and stick to it
9. Doing all this should put me at my ideal weight (approx 12-15 pounds lighter)
10. Stick to it for 1 whole year - This will be a struggle, but totally feasible
Finances
1. Reduce Debt by ALOT! I have an amount set, but don't think its appropriate to list it here.
2. Save $3,000 for IUI/Injectible Cycle ($250/month)
Intellectual Development
1. Read 10 books
2. Take some fun classes around town (crafty or gardening)
3. Learn how to knit
Spirtuality
1. Yoga or Pilates or TaeBo (twice weekly) - This might be joining the Piyo class at gym
Personal Development
1. Remember cards for birthdays, holidays, anniversaries, etc. (This was a goal for 2005 - I was good except for the "minor" holiday cards, ie Easter)
2. Increase positive well being
3. Update scrapbooks and keep them updated in timely manner
June 30 - Evaluate Goals & Progress
Most of my goals are more towards my health, yes, but it's very important. I think when I get my total body in check most of the other things will just come and I can feel better about myself all around.
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