Tuesday, March 30, 2004

Feel much better

I'm feeling much better today. I let my aleve run out last night and started having some mild cramping before I went to bed, but it disappeared shortly after I took more meds. I do however feel yucky today. Now I know this it too much information, but... After they shoot the die up inside of you, obviously it has to come back out. Well, last night when I was sleeping obviously it doesn't just "flow out" b/c of gravity. So, apparently it decided to dry up, so to speak. So this morning I had these little globs of crumbly stuff that I sorta had to wipe/pick out. I know it sounds totally gross, but it was just weird.

Monday, March 29, 2004

HSG

Yes, I had my HSG today. Ugh. It was horrible. First my doctor was late and they had to page him. Then we I got in there he asked me if I had taken the motrin or ibuprofren this morning, which I knew nothing about. He said no big deal, but I would want to take it when I got home. The whole experience was quick, but not in the least bit fun. First they put the speculum in. Then he inserts another thing (I think it was a catheter) in then you have to slide back so you are under the actual x-ray machine while he holds this catheter. Then you have to 1/2 way roll to one side, hold it, then the other, hold it. That is probably the worst part. Apparently your cervix is a muscle and touching it makes it go into spasms, thus the cramping. I started cramping immediately and went to change. They gave me this pad that was so tiny I couldn't imagine how it would hold anything. Of course I haven't bought pads in years, so what do I buy? Thin Superlong. I guess I missed the second part in trying to decide. Anyway, I came home today just to relax but will be back to work tomorrow for sure!

Oh, I almost forgot the most important part. My tubes are clear. Apparently this just shows him major blockage and I don't have any of that. So, it's back to "keep trying". I'm not sure when I'm suppose to call again, but I figure I'll call after 1 full year of trying and see what happens then. He'll probably say wait another 6 months.

On another note, this guy had horrible bedside manners or at least he is NOT a people person, so after a year I think I'll ask to see someone else in the office.

Fabulous Weekend

Friday I was swamped at work, so I didn't do much chatting or e-mailing or much. I had training until 11:00, which was overwhelming. Then had a working meeting with my boss and worked on the list we made at lunch all afternoon. By the time I got home I just wanted to relax, which we did.

Saturday we got up early and cleaned the house and the in-laws came over around noon. We went out to eat at Don Pablo's then did a little shopping and came back home. I bought some lawn fertilizer and one of those spreader things, so we put that on the yard real quick before heading to the couch.

Sunday was what made the weekend. We got up early (not planned) and ended up meeting my sister Ashley and her boyfriend at Nirvana for breakfast. This is one of our favorite breakfast places. Then we went home and took a nice long walk. The weather was absolutely gorgeous. We had tickets to go to the Pacer's game, but frankly neither one of us wanted to go b/c of the weather outside. So we got someone to use the tickets and headed for the greenhouse. We ended up buying a lilac bush and a magnolia tree. Once we got home we pulled the pine tree out of our front yard planted the magnolia tree. Then we re-planted the pine tree on the hill in the back of our house on the easement. Finally we planted the lilac bush. One neighbor even stopped and told us what a difference it made at looking at our house. I does look much better. I also put out some grass seed, so hopefully that starts growing soon, too. We have a nice bare spot in our back yard where our pond is. Speaking of... Next weekend is the pond overhaul. That is going to be a chore.

Overall I thought it was a fabulous weekend. Eric and I got to spend some time together doing fun things, which I absolutely love.

Friday Five (on Monday again)

Ok. So, this little site we go to didn't have any Friday Five's this week so I went back a year and this is what you get this week!

1. What was your most memorable moment from the last week?

That's a tough one, nothing really memorable happened last week that I can think of. Good old AF came around again.

2. What one person touched your life this week?

Overall my girls touch my lives almost weekly. They are great. On a more personal note my sister-in-law touched my life b/c they are going to make an effort to get together for Christmas this year and I hope for many years to come. I talked to her for quite a while on the phone and it just felt good to know we are bonding.

3. How have you helped someone this week?

I think I've helped out Danialle this week. She has been a little down in the dumps and I imagine I'm probably the only one who knows about what's been going on (at least til GWO). I think I've helped her in that I'm pretty honest and call things like I see them and not just give her what she wants to hear. That's what friends are for!

4. What one thing do you need to get done by this time next week?

Well, I need to write my cousin Jamie a letter as I just got one from her. I'd also like to finish up my GWO scrapbook for the Columbus weekend. We have planned on getting our pond done next weekend. That is one of our ultimate goals right now.

5. What one thing will you do over the next seven days to make your world a better place?

Gosh...... Hmmmm..... Well we start trying to get pregnant again at the end of the week, so that could definitely make our world a better place!

Wednesday, March 24, 2004

CD 2

Yep, AF flew in late yesterday evening and she's bombing my ovaries this morning! ha ha (Severe Cramps) Anyway, I've decided not to temp this month and see what happens. It will be a little weird b/c my CM isn't even an indicator, but I'm getting burnt out, so I gotta try something new I guess. Did a few calculations about this month and this is what I've come up with....

- Estimated Dates of Ovulation - April 5-7 (CD 14-16) We will probably start trying around the 1st or 2nd of April in case of early ovulation

- Estimated Next Period - April 18-21 This month my cycle was only 26 days, which is the shortest it has been, so I hope now that it goes back up to 28 days. I would feel much better about my luteal phase.

- Estimated Test Date - I don't think I will let myself test until Thursday, April 22. In case that doesn't job your memory the ladies of GWO will be arriving at my house later that evening of that date.

Now we just get to wait a little while now before we find out if Jennifer's "no temping" month worked for her! ***Baby dust to her!***

Tuesday, March 23, 2004

CD 27, 13 DPO

Still no AF. I don't even feel like she's coming today. I'm not crampy or grouchy or bloated or anything. Maybe she'll come later today or tomorrow... Weird...

Monday, March 22, 2004

Weekend Re-cap

Friday - Of course I left work early to get my bloodwork done, which only took about 5 minutes total. We decided to check out a few art stores and antique stores in downtown Lafayette. Then decided we'd have an early dinner and headed to Battleground to a little hole in the way restaraunt/bar called TC's, where we stuffed ourself! Then went home and laid around the rest of the evening.

Saturday - Was lazy most of the morning. Left for C'ville around 2:30. On they way down we stopped by Kisha's new place. All I can say is "Boy does it need work!" We would NEVER go down that route. Then we headed over to my Nanny & Papaw's and had dinner there. After dinner we played 7-up/7-down with them for change and we took them for a whopping $1. It was a blast though. Headed home a little after 9.

Sunday - I worked on GWO packets and watched some old movies, Awakenings & Fried Green Tomatoes, neither of which I had seen before. Went grocery shopping, which was a bad idea b/c all the church crowd had the same idea. We also found "All Fired Up", a paint your own pottery place on the West Side. When I got home I baked some chocolate chip cookies and then got on a huge cleaning spree. Not sure what came over me, but I cleaned out cabinets in my kitchen, fixed a door on our entertainment center, got rid of the fish tank in the office, which then got Eric started cleaning the office and rearranging. It ended up being a pretty huge deal, but it was fun! It was a little after 10 when I went to bed and I could have stayed up even later doing stuff if I wouldn't have had to get up and go to work in the morning!

CD 26, 12 DPO - Soon to be CD 1

Yep, my temp dropped to 97.7 this morning to AF ought to be arriving any time now. I took an Aleve Naproxen this morning to help my cramps before they start. Still haven't decided about temping this month. We'll see. It is getting rather old though.

Sunday, March 21, 2004

CD 25, 11 DPO - 98.1

Well as you can see my temp dropped back to 98.1 today. I have a feeling it will be dropping more in the next few days. I guess I knew it, but each month there is always a little hope. Maybe these tests will tell us something or maybe they won't and we'll keep trying. I'm thinking of not temping next month as I know my cycle is pretty regular now, but who knows. I guess I've got a day or two to think about it. I'm going to talk to Eric, too although I already know he would rather I not temp...

I would love to see my temp go back up tomorrow, but...

Ok. I'm a little disappointed that my temp went down this morning and I know it might just be nothing. I'm just so ready to be pregnant and it's bothering me that it's taking to long.

Saturday, March 20, 2004

CD 24, 10 DPO - Update

Went yesterday and got my blood work done. They said the results should be in sometime Monday, so I'll either call late Monday or Tuesday to find out. Also asked out Eric's s/a results and those take a little longer so probably won't be in for 3-5 days, so I am planning on calling probably Thursday to find those out.

Not having any symptoms, but my temp is still up pretty high, which I'm excited about. Felt sorta crampy, but not like AF crampy, more like gasey crampy yesterday evening and so far today. Who knows?! I joined a buddy group on FF, so that is keeping my busy. They of course think my chart is triphasic, but after reading a lot of FF circles, they always think positive or at least send people positive thoughts. I guess I'm more of a realist. I won't believe it until I get that BFP. I tried reading into my chart (and still do), but honestly it just doesn't tell you much about pregnancy! At least I've come to the realization, but I do check it throughout the day in case those FF people change something. Like they are going say on the pregancy analysis, "There is no doubt you are pregnant. Congratulations!" I suppose I can hope!

Note to Jennifer - I love your analogy of the "What if Game". I tried to send you a comment, but for some reason it wouldn't open. You really gave this some thought. We'll have to print this out if I/we become pregnant this month and see how close you were... Come on O for you!

Friday, March 19, 2004

Friday Five

If you...

1. ...owned a restaurant, what kind of food would you serve? This is way to ironic.... Fondue or Bar Food

2. ...owned a small store, what kind of merchandise would you sell? scrapbook store, exotic pet store, greenhouse

3. ...wrote a book, what genre would it be? probably some type of Fiction/Literature Novel, but not a romance novel

4. ...ran a school, what would you teach? English, Gym, Health

5. ...recorded an album, what kind of music would be on it? Probably something like Tori Amos, Evanescence

CD 23, 9 DPO - 98.3

I think this weekend might be an indicator if my temp stays up there... Nothing much to report except I had a dream last night that my bbs were sore, but when I woke up they weren't. Sad. Isn't it funny how you want your bbs to be sore and to have this sickness in the mornings?? Who asks for this stuff? Of course those of us trying to become pregnant do! Oh, I'm leaving work today at 3:30 do get my bloodwork down. Nothing else really important to tell.

Eric has been under the weather. His sinuses are bothering him and he's been having headaches. Last night he went to bed when we got home from work and got back up at 9:15, don't know what time he came back to bed though. He still had a headache this morning, so he was going to stay in bed today until he picks me up to get my bloodwork done. I sure hope he feels better. We are supposed to go to C'ville tomorrow.

Thursday, March 18, 2004

CD 22, 8 DPO - 98.3

Not a whole lot to report on today except my temp is still up. Obviously still early for any "symptoms". I feel like if it goes back down to .1 then I would most likely not be pregnant. If it stays up at .3 or higher then I think there's a good chance I am. So far this cycle has been a little different from the rest in that I didn't hit .3 until 7 DPO whereas the last few has went up to .3 at 4-5 DPO. I honestly don't have high hopes this cycle, but I still have some hope. I suppose the next few days might be an indicator, but then again temps really don't tell you much until afterwards...

AF (if she shows) is expected sometime next Tuesday-Thursday. FF has me testing on Thursday, which is 15 DPO and I think I'll stick to what they think this month. Currently I only have 1 test, so I guess it better be worth the while! I'm saving it for a special time. We'll see if it agrees.

On a side note, Eric deposited his "thesis" this morning. I'm sure he's glad to have that behind him. I leave work tomorrow at 3:30 to get my bloodwork done. Not sure who and when we find out the results. I'm assuming someone will call.

Other news

Planning on going to C'ville this weekend to visit my grandparents as they are back from Florida. We might possibly stop by my mom's house, but not sure on that yet and I haven't even talked to her yet to find out if she'll be home.

My computer was down from Monday afternoon to Wednesday late morning, so thus the lack of updates. Everything should be okay now. (We'll see)

Wednesday, March 17, 2004

Happy St. Patrick's Day



Do you have green on today? My underwear are. Can you believe I don't own a green shirt?



Monday, March 15, 2004

Update

CD 19, 5 DPO
Eric is taking in his "sample" on Thursday this week and I have to go in on Friday to get blood tests, which essentially is just to make sure I'm ovulating and I am. So I guess they get to stick me for the fun of it. I'm 5 DPO today. Not really sure how I feel right now. I'm not getting my hopes up, but at the same time I feel like our 1 day was good timing. Obviously it's too soon to even feel anything, so we'll see what happens. We were talking last night and it was almost like we took the month off and went back to once a week like before TTC. It wasn't as "planned".

This Weekend
We had a really nice weekend. Saturday we went to Melting Pot and had dinner, which of course was excellent. On the way over we stopped at a dealer and looked at Mini Coopers. Who knows if we'll get one, but they look fun. Build your own here. It's sorta pointless for us both of have an SUV, but at the same time we will not make out so well on the Explorer, so essentially we will probably end up paying more. blah, blah, blah.

Yesterday we browsed through a few stores and went to the Theatre and saw "50 First Dates". It was funny and good, but probably not something I'd watch several times more (we won't be buying it). We also stopped at Blockbuster on the way home and got "Mona Lisa Smile". I wasn't real impressed with it, but it was okay to watch once...

Looks like spring isn't as close as I thought. I just read the weather and it's supposed to start snowing tonight with accumulation of 4-6 tomorrow and 1-2 more on Wednesday. YUCK! I'm not impressed at all!

Friday, March 12, 2004

Friday Five

March 12, 2004

It's time again for this week's Friday Five.

1. What was the last song you heard?
- Radio@Netscape Plus.... "Figured You Out" by Nickelback

2. What were the last two movies you saw?
- Cold Creek Maynor
- Dickie Roberts Former Child Star


3. What were the last three things you purchased?
- Eyelet Tool Set
- Groceries
- Subway


4. What four things do you need to do this weekend?
- Eat at Melting Pot on Saturday
- Go to Movie on Sunday
- Work on Scrapbooks
- Relax and Sleep in!


5. Who are the last five people you talked to?
- Darla @ Work
- Danialle via IM
- Eric on phone
- Judy @ Work
- Professor McDeavitt @ Work

Thursday, March 11, 2004

Day 15, 1 DPO

My temp officially spiked today. Good old 98.1. Of course it has to stay up for 3 days before FF gives me an ovulation date, but I'm pretty confident. This month was definitely different than the other months...

Some Thoughts
1) Basically we are relying solely on me getting an extra special birthday present or being a very late ovulater as we only BD'd Tuesday (my birthday) and then tonight. I feel like we timed it okay. I figure I o'd late Tuesday or yesterday sometime. We probably should have bd'd yesterday, but at the same time we were doing the every other day thing this month. Heck, it didn't work last month doing it every day, so maybe doing it once this month will work. Doesn't make a person feel like they've tried very hard though. Don't think I will be getting my hopes up too high this time around.

2) On another note, if this month does happens then that will mean we conceived around my birthday and that would put my EDD at December 1 and Eric's birthday is December 15. Conception for my birthday, delivery for Eric's. That's a nice thought.

OK. I cheated a little bit and assuming I have 3 full days of high temps, I could test on March 25 or 15 DPO. And that is even FF's test date... Another thought if that is the case and with all this other birthday stuff, I would tell my parents (Dad & Peg) on the 30th, which is Peg's birthday!

OK, maybe I'm getting my hopes up a tad bit...

Tuesday, March 09, 2004

Update

I just flowers sent to work by my lovely girls! Hopefully I can post a nice pic of them unlike my bracelet pic.

CD 13

On another note, my temp went up to 97.6 this morning so I have a feeling I'll ovulate either today or tomorrow. I'm definitely at that creamy stage today. Eric and I decided last night that we'd just wait to start trying until tonight so that maybe I will get an extra special birthday present this month. We'll see if it works, but you never know. It just might.

My Birthday

Today is my birthday and I'm 25 years old. Wow! It seems like those days and years get shorter the older you get. Apparently my birthday isn't really until 5:17 this evening, but it's still my day!

Here is my Birthday/Anniversary Present from Eric - It's fuzzy but you get the idea.


Some of my other gifts include cards (a few with money in them) and a birthday cake from my boss. I used a little of the money to buy 2 colored bras that match some of my undies. Also, tonight my dad & Peg are coming up and we are having dinner at..... Yes, you guess it..... Don Pablo's. And I get to wear the sombraro.

Also my grandparents on the Paddack side, my grandma Nita and my mom called to wish me a happy birthday. My mom even sang the entire birthday song to me!

Monday, March 08, 2004

New Week

Well, ironically enough we start trying this week. FF estimates me o-ing sometime between Wednesday & Friday. We are starting every other day tonight. Might even get an every day in on a couple of days. Maybe. We are just sorta going with the flow this month. Not as well, not sure of the word. Obsessed sounds drastic, but laid back sounds like we aren't all that into it, which isn't the case either... Hmmm...

Anyway, on another note tomorrow is my birthday. A whole "Quarter of a Century" old. I don't feel that age. Although I don't feel older or younger either. So, all in all, I guess I'm about the right age. Not that I have a choice.

The weekend was fun but pretty lazy, too. Saturday we went to the mall and came home with my my birthday and anniversary and any other close holiday in that vacinity gift. I got a diamond tennis bracelet. It is absolutely gorgeous! Eric had originally wanted to get me one, but I told him I thought it was too much. We, well he, didn't find anything else that he felt like was the "right gift". Needless to say, we spent about twice as much as we intended, but we decided it would definitely be something to hand down to our kids later on. It was also a little more b/c it has more gold on it as it's sort of u's around the diamonds instead of s's which snag things. I will try to post a pic of it later. Yesterday, Sunday, we were pretty lazy. We took some pics in to get printed and did a little grocery shopping at Kroger. I worked on my GWO scrapbook for a little while in the evening while Eric cleaned out the coat closet. Then we watched the "Matchstick Man" with Nicolas Cage. It was a pretty good movie. Basically about this con artist who finds out he has a daughter and unfortunately gets her involved it conning people. Surprising ending, but it reminds me of another movie I've seen, but I'm not sure which one. I'll have to think about that.

Friday Five (On Monday)

What was...

1. ...your first grade teacher's name? Mrs. Harbison - I will NEVER forget her!

2. ...your favorite Saturday morning cartoon? I would probably say Smurfs, but overall it was whatever was on!

3. ...the name of your very first best friend? Katie Mann

4. ...your favorite breakfast cereal? Lucky Charms, Frosted Mini Wheats, Count Chocula

5. ...your favorite thing to do after school? Ride 3-Wheelers, Investigate areas around the pond, just plain be outside!

Thursday, March 04, 2004

Dr. Appt. Update

Went to the doctor today and came out feeling better. I was getting pretty mad and frustrated at the beginning b/c my doc wasn't getting it. He said that it really wasn't likely that my endo was back and that they could put me on Lupron or back on BC to ease the pain. This totally defeats the purpose of trying to conceive so there was NO WAY that was happening. He basically told us that he wouldn't do a laparoscopy that we could find someone else if we wanted. We were getting pissed. Thankfully the nurse came in a the doc had to leave for a minute to take a call. When he came back in, he apparently thought about what he was telling us and realized that we would do just that, go somewhere else, b/c he said we could do the normal tests. They are going to do a sperm count on Eric sometime next week. This complicates things b/c we are supposed to start trying next week, so we decided that the last day of our trying, he would wait 3 days then do his sperm count. I go to the lab on March 19 and they are going to do blood tests on me to check my progesterone and HsG. Then on the first day of my next period I call the doc and I go the day after the last day of my period for an x-ray on my tubes to make sure they aren't blocked.

I feel much better about the whole situation and maybe I am being a hypocondriac, but at least I'll know if those things are good, I will feel much better. I did find out that my endo that I had back in 2000 was mild, so that makes me feel much better, too. This wasn't stated until later in the doc appt, thus getting me a little worked up. I guess if I would have known that it was only mild back then I wouldn't have worried about it so much.

Tuesday, March 02, 2004

"The Lovely Bones" by Alice Sebold

Yep, book number 4 is done now, too. This is a very good book. Basically it is about this girl who is raped and murdered and whose body may never be found. She is in heaven looking down on everyone on Earth and how their lives change after her death. It was sorta odd, but you really don't think about how everyone else's life will change after you die.

I highly recommend this book.

This author also wrote the book "Lucky", which is another good book.

Hmmm..... What shall I read next?

Monday, March 01, 2004

Finished Book

I finished my 3rd book of the 10 I'd like to read for the year. This book, "Why Grace Changes Everything" by Chuck Smith was really good and lent to me by Danialle. I wasn't brought up in a religious family and don't really know much about religion or the Bible for that matter. One of my goals this year that I didn't put here, but that is in my journal at home is to learn about religion. Anyway this book was really good and made me feel better about my position in life. Right now obviously I don't go to church. Basically this book said that you don't have to be "perfect" and sin-free and go to church to go to Heaven. As long as you believe and have faith then when that time comes Jesus will wipe your slate clean of your sins and you go to Heaven. I don't really understand this part b/c it seems like God will never know of your sins, but what doesn't make sense is that you pray to good and ask for forgiveness, but God doesn't really know of your sins. Guess Danialle & I need to discuss this book.

Anyway, I'm sorta torn b/c I want to at least learn about religion and the Bible, but haven't chosen a church yet. Eric is not into going to church every Sunday b/c that was forced upon him when he was little. I know I could go without him, but that's not something I want to venture into by myself either. Ugh... Decision, decisions...

Good Weekend

We had a really good weekend.

Friday
We were lazy. I was still a little blah from Aunt Flo who visited on Thursday, but got over it.

Saturday
We got up and went to Menards, Lowes & SAMs. Eric got a couple of storage shelves for the garage and I got paint for our living room (Color: Warm Gingerbread). Eric worked out in the garage and I worked in the yard. I pulled & dug a bunch of bulbs out that the insane previous owner apparently put in. That was quite a chore. I had to dig through the mulch and find the random spots they were planted then fight the fabric lining between the dirt and mulch to keep weeds out. Needless to say my butt got a nice workout. I even axed down this bush that was half dead, which was fun. Then I headed to the back yard and picked up sticks. I got bored so I decided to join Eric in the garage. We did some rearranging and it looks much better now. We were pretty exhausted after the day so we relaxed the rest of the evening.

Sunday
We got up at a decent time and started moving furniture to the center of the room and taping stuff off by around 10 am. We started painting and didn't really run in to anything major. I used this edger for the ceilings and around the windows and stuff while Eric rolled the walls. It wasn't a quick process by any means as our living room is not small and it has vaulted ceilings. Overall, I think it looks great. It definitely gives it the "warm" feeling, which I was looking for and Eric likes to make fun of me for. It makes the room darker, but I don't mind that much. We would like to get this painting to go over the couch and may even do some smaller oil painting this summer to put on each side of the hutch. I personally would like to get a neat lamp to put in there, too.

Yesterday evening we went for a walk on the trail by our house then went grocery shopping and I did some baking for my lunch this week and made Eric some key lime bars. I was supposed to make him these cinnamon swirl bars, but decided to wait until next weekend. I was ready to sit down and relax. Watched the Oscar's until about 10 then went to bed.