No Visitor

Today is when AF was supposed to come, but so far she hasn't. Yesterday I was pretty grouchy and had some major cramps, which was weird b/c I have had cramps before my period since I was on the pill. It's been cramps the morning and day of. I don't really feel crampy today. It's just sit and wait, oh and make numerous bathroom visits to check now! ha ha

Today is the day we find out if Jennifer got a positive test. I sure hope she did. I'm so excited for them.

Tonight we are going down to my grandparents to bring in the new year. We munch all evening while playing some major euchre, too. Should be a lot of fun.

Holiday Re-cap

I'm back to work today. Thought I would update my blog over the holiday, but that didn't happen, so I'll re-cap. I went home sick from work on Tuesday late morning. (Started feeling sick Monday and it kept getting worse.) On Wednesday, Christmas Eve, I was pretty bad, so Eric ended up taking me to the hospital. Fortunately I didn't have the flu, but did have an upper respiratory infection. They gave me a prescription and sent me on my way. On Christmas morning, I was torn. I wasn't feeling much better, but at the same time didn't want to miss Christmas. We ended up going to Dad & Peg's for lunch and then on down to my grandparent's house (Peg's side). Needlesss to say we left after dinner. I was pretty exhausted and ended up having a horrible night of sleeping. I stayed in bed the whole day on Friday. Saturday I was feeling much better. We went to C'ville that evening and had dinner with my grandparents on my mom's side and my siblings. It was very nice. My sisters, their boyfriends, Eric & I went and played a game of bowling and then we went to my mom's house and visited with her for a little while. We looked through some pics of us when we were younger and had a few laughs. Yesterday, Eric and I went to see Lord of the Rings and just relaxed besides that.

I'm sure that I'm not pregnant this month again. My temp spiked last week, but I think it was a temperature rather than a ovulation spike. Saturday my temp went back down to where it was before I got sick. I read more in the Fertility book and am pretty confused. With my periods so regular it is hard to imagine that I'm not ovulating, but at the same time, it is pretty obvious that I'm not by my temps. I actually wish I was irregular! It would be a lot easier to deal with. Honestly I think I have the problem of my body not producing enough proestrogen for ovulation. Maybe. I also wonder about stress, but if stress was the problem then again, my periods would be messed up. I"m supposed to start my period on the 31st, so hopefully next month will be better!

On another note, I've been working on my relationship with my mom. We are both making some baby steps to become friends again. I'm glad that she is finally making some progress on it and hopefully things will get better. I have heard several things about her from my sisters and various people about her being sick, but she has never told me anything. Saturday she finally broke down and we had a talk. Apparently about 6 months ago she was dianosed with colon cancer and severe endometriosis. I guess she also has polyps, but I don't really understand or know what that means. I'm going to do some research today on it. Right now they are treating her with medication, but she goes back in February for more tests. We were both very upset while talking about it, so I don't know any more specifics, but intend to find out soon! I'll keep you posted.

Day 20 Questionable

My temp spiked to 98.6 today, but I am also very sick, so I imagine it is just fever. Even so, we had planned on trying last night, but I started getting really sick, so we didn't. The last time we tried was Saturday, so I doubt if anything will be fertilized even if it was an ovulation spike...

Day 19

Well, today is Day 19 and still no ovulation. I'm discouraged as I should be. So many things are going through my head. It's hard to describe. I've sorta wondered after the first few months if I was ovulating. Then as this month progressed I just figured I was a late ovulater, now, even though I could still ovulate this month, I am pretty sure I won't unless it happens today!

A part of me thinks I've just had some stress that could be contributing to this anovulation and next month will be better. Another part of me wants to get really down and think I'm just screwed up. I'm trying not to listen to that side, but when you want to get pregnant and so have not had any luck, it's pretty discouraging. I tried not to think about it this weekend, but heck when you start your day off with a pre-o temp, it does start the day off so well.

Gotta think positive. Gotta think positive.

I'm glad I started charting my temp though or I could have just kept going to several more months with no idea. Maybe tomorrow will be better. We are going to try again tonight, but I don't think we will anymore this week after tonight.

Day 16

Well, I thought I would have ovulated by now, but so far nothing. I was a little discouraged this morning, but thanks to a few people, I'm certain I'm just a late ovulater and that is probably why it hasn't happened yet. I guess I just had it in my mind that since I have a clockwork Aunt (Flow), I would be the imfamous ovulater on Day 14. Guess I was wrong. How many people's bodies are really like that? Seriously!

It's going to be a crazy weekend. We are going to finish up our Christmas shopping tonight. Eric's parents are coming over on Saturday for a belated birthday for Eric. That will be a day of shopping and eating, too. Sunday is Christmas with the Paddack side. We have to go to the other side of Indy. I'm not excited about the driving, but it will be nice to see everyone. Christmas day is actually going to be much more peaceful this year. Not so much driving and hustle-bustle. We get to wake up whenever and have christmas at our house. Leave around 12:00 noon to go to my dad's then head down to Peg's side for dinner! This should continue like this, so it will be nice when the kids finally arrive.

Ovulation

I imagine I will be ovulating either today, Wednesday or Thursday. I kinda have an upset stomach today, so I'm hoping that means I will ovulate today. We are trying again tonight and we tried Sunday, so I feel pretty sure we've covered it. I was also feeling sorta crampy last night, but thought maybe it was just b/c of something I ate. Probably too many details, but I feel pretty "wet" today and that is always a pretty good indicator. My temp dipped to a low 96.9 this morning, so I wonder if it dips before it jumps. Hmmm... I'll have to see what my friend Jennifer's did the day before she ovulated...

Update on Lindsay

Lindsay went to the doctor yesterday and she is 5 weeks pregnant. Her due date is September 15, the day before the father's 18th birthday. Isn't that kinda ironic? They gave her a new prenatal vitamin b/c the one she was taking was making her sick. Her next appointment is January 8. We are pretty sure she will be able to take Driver's Ed this summer as she will be 16 in July.

Bad News

I did get a little bad news over the weekend. Remember a few months ago when my 15 yr. old sister thought she was pregnant? Well, it turns out that it apparently didn't scare her enough b/c she is pregnant now. She goes to the doc today to find out how far along she is, so I'll update everyong on that tomorrow. We are really disappointed, but told her we would help in any way we could. I gave her my "What to Expect" book and told her to read it front to back then front to back. She said she borrowed it from the library already and had started reading it. Thankfully I've already read it, but I do plan on getting another one soon. I will reference MANY times throughout my pregnancy I'm sure.

Doctor's Appointment

Went to the ob-gyn on Friday, December 12. Everything went pretty well. Basically, he said if I didn't get pregnant in another 4-6 months then we could come back and they would check the "Top 3", which is if I'm ovulating, make sure my tubes are clear and check Eric's sperm count. Charting my temp will confirm if I'm ovulating or not. He actually told me not to put too much into charting my temp, but at the same time don't get rid of it. He said not to even worry about my mucus b/c when we are trying it isn't accurate anyway b/c of the other stuff. I feel pretty confident about this month or at least more in tune with my body and all the happenings, so we'll see. This would be an awesome New Year's surprise!

Nice Evening at home

I'm going to have a nice evening at home this evening. Eric has a promotion and they have to start setting up around 6:00. He said he may come home to watch Survivor and then go back out again. I will probably just snuggle up on the couch and read more of my fertility book. I'm anxious to finish it. I'm only about a little over 1/2 way through it.

Speaking of, I've been taking my temperature every morning so I will be anxious to see when it actually spikes. I go to the doctor on Friday for my yearly exam. For once I'm actually anxious to go there. I'm sure I won't have much to tell him with my chart and I imagine he will think the chart is not necessary anyway, but o'well. It's still fun.

Babies

Just read my friend Jennifer's recent post and started thinking. Why is it so easy for some to get pregnant and difficult for others. Now, I know there are people that are far worse off than me. I'm just thinking publicly here. Take my boss for example. She has 2 sons. Her youngest son and his wife just had their 2nd little boy, cute as a button. They got it on their first time. Her oldest son called her last night and said he and his fiance were expecting unexpectedly. It will be his 2nd, her first. I know both myself and my cousin Danialle were both accidents. And although I'm glad I didn't have any accidents in my younger days, I'd like one now. ha ha I suppose that is just the way it goes. It's never easy when you want it to happen, but always easy when you don't. I guess I just needed to get a little off my chest...

I sure hope that this child isn't going to be this much of a pain when it finally does arrive. ha ha ha

Diet Log

Well, it's Monday and boy does it feel like it. The weekend was okay. Went to a wedding on Saturday. It was quite small as it was for my distant relative who is much older. Didn't stay at the reception very long. Sunday we went out to lunch at Don Pablo's and then to see "The Last Samurai". We thought it was a good movie. Of course, Eric really gets into that kinda of stuff. There were definitely some gorey parts in it as well.

Anyway, as you can see from my title, I've also decided to start a Diet Log. (Good idea Danialle)! I got a little down over the weekend for many different things. I know mostly its the holiday blues. I'm hoping that the diet and stuff will help me feel better. Of course, I had hoped I would be putting on weight at this time, but unfortunately its not for the right reasons. Actually its for no reason other than gorging in food and sitting on the couch watching TV.

So, here goes! Day #1 (Although I did do some lunges and crunches last night!)

Is it 5:00 yet?

I'm super bored at work today as you can tell. Only 35 more minutes, so I thought blogging would waste some time.

I did some updated and playing with my FAM chart today. I'm going to have to figure out how to post the chart. I will try that this weekend. I have a ton of things to do this weekend. We also have to make out our Christmas lists. Haven't even starting shopping yet. Ugh.

I hope I enjoy this charting. I don't have a lot of patience though, so I already want to put me temperatures in for the rest of the month. I suppose that is why I've played with it so much today. I wonder if Jennifer had that problem....

Don't have too many plans for the weekend though. Have a wedding Saturday evening and we plan on stopping by my Dad & Peg's to see their new puppy. They got a Lab/Boxer mix. Kelby is her name and she is black with white chest and tips. Not sure what is tipped white.

Still haven't heard from my sister and her dilemma, although I know she isn't staying at my mom's house. I guess there is only one other place for her. Her dad's.

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas (20 Days til)

We woke up this morning to a couple of inches of snow on the ground. Yay! I love it when it snows. I started taking my temperature this morning. Honestly I wasn't sure if I was going to this month or not, but decided this morning when I woke up that I would. I guess we'll see how it goes. Plus, I want to use my chart I made. ha ha

Oh, I forgot to mention yesterday that I was supposed to go to the doc yesterday morning for my pap. Unfortunately b/c of my visitor I was unable to so I rescheduled it. Now, I got next Friday, Dec 12. I am actually looking forward to it b/c I have questions and want to know what he thinks about some things.

Everything! 21 Days til Christmas...

Just finished reading everyone's blog this morning. And as you can tell from the title, I have a lot to talk about. I thought I'd start with Tuesday!

Tuesday
As you know we had a VERY IMPORTANT workshop starting with a reception Tuesday night and the workshop on Wednesday. I came in at about 7:30 am and didn't leave this place until around 9:00 pm. Can you say LONG DAY? Ugh. The reception was a huge success. Everyone was so impressed with everything we did and we got complimented continuously! I was exhausted so I pretty much went right to bed when I got home.

Wednesday
At 2:30 in the morning our doorbell was ringing and someone was knocking on the door. It was my younger sister (the older of the two) Ashlee. She had apparently got into a huge fight with her dad (who is a complete asshole anyway). We talked for a little while and then tried to go back to sleep. Didn't get a whole lot more sleep. I was up and back at work by 7:30 am to get ready for the workshop. The workshop was a huge success, too. Eric & I were pretty stressed yesterday and got little sleep the night before. We really don't/didn't know what to do. As much as we wanted to take Ashlee in, we are not her parents. On top of that we only have 1 spare bedroom and and trying to have a child. Needless to say, I'm not sure what is going on. My mom came up last night and we talked to her and laid down some groud rules for both of them if Ashlee goes their. She ended up talking to her dad last night against our wishes and I went to bed. When I got up this morning to get Ashlee up, she just told me she was going to go over to her dad's tonight and talk to him and she'd call and let us know what happens. Eric pretty much laid down the law to her that we weren't playing these games. It is hard on both of us. I'll let you know what we find out.

Thursday-Today
Well, I woke up at about 5:00 this morning with cramps. That's right I started my period this morning. I was 99% sure this was not the month to get pregnant anyway, so I think Mother Nature agreed! I'm dissappointed, but then again, I knew it was going to take a while. I just didn't really believe it would take this long. Then again, it's been 4 months with the first 3 kinda hit and miss. We were trying, but not as actively as we should. Anyway, I supposed nature will take its course and apparently it wasn't meant to happen over the holidays since there was so much stress. OH, I"ve also come to the conclusion that my cycle is 27 days now. It was 27 days the last time, too, but I just kinda thought it was a flux, but it was 27 days this time, too. So with that being said, guess when my estimated ENP is.... New Year's Eve! WONDERFUL!!! Guess we won't be bringing in the new year with a "bang". ha ha ha We'll have to bring it in the night before! wink

Anyway, today is back to normal for the most part. I plan on taking a nap when I get home tonight and then watching Survivor and possibly CSI, but we might tape that and watch it tomorrow.

23 Days til Christmas...

Don't have time to blog, but wanted to get that in. I'll do a life update on Thursday.

Holidays.... 24 Days til Christmas

This is my 3rd time trying to post this morning. Apparently I'm having some brain failures or something. Ugh. My holiday festivities were good. Although we do so much driving that I'm always glad when they are done. Let's see. Wednesday we did some grocery shopping, which I was a little nervous about b/c of waiting until the last minute. Fortunately, they had everything we needed. Thursday, I hosted my dad's side and Eric's parents at my house. Everything went perfect with no major dilemmas. I was exhausted Thursday night though. Friday we got up early for some Christmas shopping, but after the 1 hour wait at Best Buy and the 5 mile (almost) walk back to the truck, we decided it wasn't worth it. Friday afternoon we went to my mom's side get together, which crazily enough was nice. Everyone got along and it was very calm. The weather on the way home was bad, but we made it home safe. Saturday we made our final trip south to Peg's side get together, which is always nice. We are burnt out on Turkey though. ha ha

Put up the outside decorations yesterday morning, ran out of a few strands, so Eric is getting them today. We also did our traditional cut a tree down yourself. That was so much fun. As usual, those trees look so much smaller out in a field then they do in your house. We got a giant! Our house smells so awesome though! Oh and with some of the branches we cut off the bottom I made a not so Martha Stewart wreath. Needless to say, that will probably be history this afternoon, too. If not I will take a pic of it and I will try to post some pics later in the week once the outside is finished!

Started the diet today. So far so good. Had bacon and a piece of bread for breakfast. Pears and cottage cheese for snack. Piece of bread, turkey, green beans for lunch. Piece of bread, bacon, and cottage cheese for my afternoon snack. Hmmm... I guess it won't hurt! Not sure on dinner. It's going to be a struggle this week for me, too. I know I'm working over tonight at least a little. Tuesday, I probably won't be home until after 8 pm and I hope I can eat good at our reception that night. Wednesday is our conference and I know I will be involved in that, so even if I do eat healthy, I won't be able to eat on a schedule every couple of hours. I WILL TRY THOUGH.

I have a small dilemma in aunt flow & pregnancy testing. Here goes.... I'm supposed to be visited by aunt flow on Friday. However, I have a yearly appointment with my OB/GYN on Thursday morning. I imagine I will test Thursday morning so I can tell the doc for sure. I guess unless I start on Thursday morning, which could also be a possibility. I guess I should probably tell you (Danialle knows a little), I had some problems over the holiday. I was having major pains in my left side. Eric was ready to take me to the hospital. They have stopped now (today). Not sure what the deal was (or is). Anyone have any thoughts/suggestions?? I do NOT think it has anything to do with periods or babies. Anyway, back to the pregnancy thing. I'm not having any symptoms thus far. And honestly I'm pretty certain I'm not pregnant. I guess we'll see later this week, but don't get your hopes up...