Fingers crossed for Jennifer

Should be a few days before we find out anything for Jennifer. I'm keeping my fingers crossed this month for her. And even though I want us to be pregnant at the same time, I hope she is pregnant this month.

Bad Day

OK, so now I'm not having a very good day. Rightfully so. My idiot boss (Tramp) apparently talked to his "Lady" last night and she doesn't want to be in the cold today, so they have cancelled the luncheon for today. That thoroughly ticks me off for a few reasons. 1) This is this guy's last day and we aren't even taking him to lunch. 2) We are getting in our cars, driving down there and walking 20 feet to the entrance of the restaurant. It's not like we have to even walk very far. 3) Being that I'm on a diet, I didn't pack my lunch and already knew what I was getting at our luncheon today. Now I have to go to the union and figure something out. Eric brought me to work, so I can't even drive anywhere. 4) I will lay money on them (Lady and the Tramp) going to lunch today OUTSIDE our building. Ugh!

Tramp is a complete idiot and he needs to step down from his position. That's about all I have to say about that. I hope he gets in trouble b/c he's sleeping with "Lady" which is considered at a minimum of fraternizing.

Day 29, 15 DPO - HPT-

Where to start??? My temp droppped to 97.7 this morning and despite my better judgement I was sure it was b/c I didn't sleep very well last night. Unfortunately I took a test and it was a BFN. I imagine I will be getting my visitor today or tomorrow. So, it's another month of charting.

Eric was so sweet this morning. He kept saying, "You still might be pregnant", but I know that just isn't the case. He asked me to think about stopping charting, but honestly, I did think about it. He thinks I get too stressed the last 2 weeks, but I would wonder anyway, so why not be more aware of my body. I think charting helps me not be so stressed.

I am super dissappointed about this month. I don't even feel like I'm getting ready to start my period. I guess I'm more discouraged b/c that was the 6th month of trying. Although I look back and realize that several of those other months I probably didn't ovulate b/c of stress, it was still our 6th month. I guess there will be one more now.

I will say if this next month doesn't work, I will be calling the doc.

That's all for now. I'll update more when the witch arrives...

Funny Story

This morning Eric & I had a lit spat. He takes me to work when its yucky out so I don't have to walk and I think he's babying me a little this week b/c, well you know. Anyway, occassionally he thinks he has to race to get me to work, so I tend to criticize his driving, which REALLY makes him mad. That was the case this morning. This Purdue car passed him and I agree the car was flying, so Eric decides we need to catch him to get his license plate. I really could have cared less. When I looked over he was doing 50 in a 35, so I yelled at him and of course he got mad, slowed down to 35 and it was silent for a few miles. :) When we got to work I told him he should be nice to me b/c tomorrow I could be pregnant. His response...

"What about today? You might be pregnant today, too!"

I guess I worded it wrong. We both laughed.

Sometimes he just drives me nuts with his driving. (Danialle knows) He has gotten much better now, but occassionally he gets a little carried away and I have to criticize him and he gets mad, but it usually doesn't last long.

My husband is the greatest man I know and I love him dearly.

Day 28, 14 DPO - 1 Day til Test

I was so nervous taking my temp this morning and it was hard to turn the light on to even look at the temp, but it was a 98.1, so my day is going wonderfully! Good thing I made Eric hide the HPTs b/c I wanted to test this morning SO BAD!!! They are back in the bathroom now just waiting for tomorrow so they can get peed on! ha ha ha

I have a feeling this day is going to drag by...

Anxious.

Anxious is probably an understatement! I'm getting so anxious and can hardly wait until Friday. Only 2 days left! I called Eric a few minutes ago and told him to hide the HPTs and don't let me have them until tomorrow evening. It's good, but I know he probably won't even give them to me until Friday morning!

Potential Symptoms:

Hot Flashes - Monday & Tuesday - The thing is I'm never hot, especially in this weather. I always have my heater going at work (even in the summer).
NO Energy - Monday & Tuesday
Little Bloated - Tuesday & Today - Could be PMS

Day 27, 13 DPO - 2 Days til Test

98.1 yet again. It was all I could do to not test this morning!

Day 26, 12 DPO - 3 Days til Test

Yep, 98.1 again today. Yay! I'm getting very anxious, but I'm holding out so far.

Weird that yesterday I kept having hot flashes. My boss even asked if I was sick or something b/c she wasn't hot at all. I can't imagine that being a symptom already though... Or could it? Nah, my body is probably doing weird things again.

Day 25, 11 DPO - 4 Days til Test

Another 98.1 temp today. That always puts me in a good mood first thing in the morning. I sure hope this is the month!

Had hot flashes off and on throughout the day...

Day 24, 10 DPO - 5 Days til Test

Well, my temp went up to 98.1 again this morning. I'm so happy with my temps this month. I feel pretty good about it.

Eric broke our sweeper Friday night on accident although I was thrilled b/c I hate that one, so we got a new one yesterday. We got a Dyson DC07. We used it last night for a minute and it is awesome, so I'm cleaning the house with it today! Weird I'm excited to clean the house! ha ha

Temp Drop - Day 22, 8 DPO

Well my temp dropped back down to 97.6 today, which is still above the coverline, but I'm not sure what to think about this. Kinda odd. Needless to say I became a VIP member of Fertility Friend for a mere $10 for 30 days. I changed a few things around that I hadn't put the first time and it gave me an O-Day of 1/15, which is day 14 and also the day we all thought I O'd. Yay. At least that is right. I e-mailed fertilityfriend and asked them what they thought about the 3 days of 98.1, so I'll update when they reply

Good Day so Far - Day 21, 7 DPO

Today I woke up and said, "Today is going to be a good day!" and so far it has. First off, I had another 98.1 temp this morning, which is always good. Also, my hair is doing good this morning. Sometimes it doesn't want to stick out on my right side, but today it did. Even more exciting, I got on the scale. Scarey after the weekend and Don Pablo's last night, BUT... Yep, I've lost 6 1/2 pounds in 2 1/2 weeks. I feel really good about that. BTW - Eric has been watching what he has been eating and drinking more water and he's lost 7 pounds.

On the baby note, I'm not as nervous/anxious this morning. I feel much better. For one thing my temps are high, so even if I didn't get pregnant this month at least I know I DID ovulate. That is an awesome feeling in itself. Also, if it doesn't happen this month, I have at least another month to lose a few before I start gaining. Obviously I would love to be pregnant this month, but I have to "prepare", so to speak, for the possibility of not being pregnant.

On another note, for those yucky, cracked winter lips, you should try Mary Kay's Satin Lips (Mask & Balm). It does wonders for your lips. it is a little pricey at $18 for the set, but well worth the money! Trust me. I have kissably smooth lips today and love it! It's kinda like face masks in that you put this stuff on your lips that sorta pastey and has little granuales in it, then wash it off and apply the balm. Good stuff.

Nervous Nellie - Day 20, 6 DPO

My temp was still up at 98.1 today. I have so many feelings and not sure what to do with them.

- I am very excited b/c there is a chance I could be pregnant.
- I'm trying not to get my hopes up too high in case I'm not.
- If I am pregnant, WOW!
- If I'm not, bummer. We'll try again
- I'm scared b/c this could be it
- I want to just jump up and down!
- I want to go to bed and wake up next Friday so I can test

My emotions are sorta up and down now. I keep thinking so many possibilities. Like for instance... Maybe I really didn't ovulate last week, that this big jump was my ovulation, which would be horrible b/c we haven't done anything since last Thursday. I want so much for this to be my implantation spike (triphasic).

THIS IS GOING TO BE A LONG WEEK AND A HALF!!!

8 More Days AND COUTING!

Triphasic? Gotta research

Today my temp went up to 98.1... Possibility of triphasic??? Not sure.

Ovulation

Well, I have a pretty good chance that I ovulated within the last 2 days. My temp spiked to a high of 97.6 this morning. Hopefully it stays up for the next few (18) days. I just hope traveling this weekend doesn't affect it any, but since I've ovulated, then it shouldn't affect it too much. I'm fairly certain we "hit our window", too. I sure hope this is the month!

Thoughts
IF this month worked that would put my due date at around October 8, which coincidentally is my cousin Jamie's birthday. Isn't that weird? I'm not getting my hopes up to high, but there's a good possibility!! We'll keep our fingers crossed!!

It would be my luck though since I started my diet with full force this month!

BBT & Life Update

I've been pretty pleased with my temps this week and part of last. I've had 2 weird ones, but mostly steady. After Aunt Flow left it was as follows 97.4, 97.0, 96.6, 97.0, 97.0, 97.0, 97.0. I figure I will ovulated sometime between late this week or early next. I'm hoping late this week since I will be traveling over the weekend, which I am very excited about. So far there hasn't been stress in my life this month, so I feel pretty confident about this month. The infamous day 14 is Thursday. Last month I had a huge dip on Day 13. Now although I cannot compare much from last cycle, I'm hoping that tells me something. I also had a huge jump around Day 20. Looking back, I could think possibly 2 things.

1) As my period "normally" is like clockwork, my ovulation could be pretty "normal", too and be around the infamous Day 14. Probably didn't happen last month b/c of stress

2) I am a late ovulator and will probably ovulate around Daya 20 or so. Although this doesn't seem as likely to me b/c I figure that dip was my body trying to ovulate again after the earlier stress although I got some new stress around that time, too.

Another good thing that is going on is that we are cleaning out our "rec" room, which will eventually be the nursery. We got the couch, TV, and TV stand sold (Thanks Danialle) and still need to get the coffee table sold. That shouldn't be too hard though. We still have to figure out what Eric is going to do with his game stations (Xbox, PS2) and also our CD's. It's a gradual process, but we figure since we are trying we might as well gradually start changing the room around, too. We need to do some repairs on the wall (holes, scrapes, etc.) and will probably paint it off white until the day comes that I am preg and we know what we are having. I hope it doesn't sound like we are rushing anything.

I love painting, so I'm getting really anxious to start working on the house. I want to paint the bathrooms, bedrooms, kitchen/dining. Not sure about the living room. We talked about getting a big canvas and painting it together, but that probably won't happen until the weather is warmer. We saw a neat painted canvas on Queer Eye. So, we'll see what ours turns out like.

Kisha News

Almost forgot. My sister Kisha had surgery yesterday. I didn't find out until after the fact. Anway, they did say she had endometriosis and scar tissue, so they cleaned her up and all. They also told her she could have to do IVF when she starts trying for kids. I told her not to worry to much about that. I know (from reading TCOYF) that there are several things out there to help with getting pregnant. Unfortunately she already only has 1 ovary b/c when she was younger she had a cyst and they had to take her ovary when they removed the cyst. She is doing fine otherwise.

Lindsay's Pregnancy

Lindsay had her first "official" doctor's appointment this morning. We found out that she is 2 months and 1 week pregnant, which makes her due date August 12, 2004. The said she was doing good and the baby was progressing well and looked healthy. She got a pic, so she was pretty excited about that, too. I don't think it has COMPLETELY set in yet although she has a real due date now, so that I'm sure is weird for her.

About Lindsay's due date
All three of us girls were born on the 9th of a month (January, March and July). I think it would be neat if Lindsay's baby is born on the 9th, too. Another option would be August 18th, which is Danialle's birthday. Really it should have a birthday of it's own, but I'm just thinking about options. (Like I have a say in the matter or something).

My Thoughts
Obviously I am not proud of the fact that my 15 year old sister is pregnant, but at the same time I hope and think it will bring the family closer. Currently, I've been talking with my mom pretty regularly and that makes me happy. She even calls me. I've talked to her more in the last 2-3 week than I have over the last year or two.

Danialle & I are going to start collecting things now to give her for her shower. Maybe not as much clothes, but more things that aren't as fun to get as gift that she will need. I'll have to do some research. If you have any ideas, let me know.

Sweet Husband

Decided to do my hair differently this morning. I curl it out instead of under. Anway, when Eric got up and told me my hair looked good this morning. It was so sweet. He is pretty good about compliments anyway, but not first thing in the morning...

Anyway, on a different note.. I had this really weird dream last night about some past high school stuff that got me thinking. I guess I'm sorta amazed at how far I've come so far. Looking back, you wouldn't have thought I'd get this far. I mean I have always had the drive, but I had some obstacles in the years to overcome. I'm proud of myself for coming as far as I've come. I've graduated college (twice), married someone who treats with me with the utmost respect and love, bought a house, have a pretty good job although it may not be the most challenging it is still rewarding. Wow! I really have made several accomplishments in my life. Now we're trying to get pregnant and even though it hasn't happened yet I know we will accomplish that, too. I guess this is just another one of those obstacles to overcome in my life.

She Arrived Late

I finally got my period today (this afternoon). I don't really know what to think abut it. That puts me at 29 day cycle now and I should be ovuating during the next GWO, which is a major bummer! I will admit that even though I KNEW I wasn't pregnant I did take a pregnancy test this morning. I was sorta stumped about AF and wanted to be positive. O'well. Give me a good reason to use my coupon I got on-line now!

We've had a pretty relaxing lazy vacation so far. We went down to my grandparents for New Year's and played in a euchre match. I came in DEAD LAST. I got a prize for it though. A roll of toilet paper. Yesterday we did a few things (errand wise). I bought a new journal as I've decided to start writing in a journal and keep one from year to year. Today, my grandparents came over and helped us put up a new ceiling fan in our bedroom. We can finally have a fan in the bedroom. It gets sorta stuffy in there sometime. Then my parents stopped by for a little bit.

Tomorrow I'm going to work on my eating plan for the week and then go grocery shopping on Sunday. I had a good dish tonight, but I'm not sure how BFL it was. I suppose it wasn't too bad if I used no or ff cheese. I'm really excited about getting on the BFL diet. This week I really strayed from the meal plan and I've felt like crap b/c of it. I'm ready to get in shape!